Forgive Me

Things matter even when you think they don't. They matter when you’re thinking about something else. Things are important when they’re not obvious, when they’re subtle, like the curve of a lip. They’re important in the spaces that most of us miss.

Because we don't know what matters until it passes us by. Until it's too late to grab it, hold it and say, "I'm sorry, I didn't know this mattered. I didn't know it was important."

You will say that the time for anger is now, that we have not been angry enough, that not being angry enough is the problem, and I understand that you have every right to be angry and I am angry for you.

And yet somehow, you and I must turn the anger into love. We must turn the black cloud of hate into light. We must turn war into peace. We must turn clenched fists into open hands. We must only perform miracles.

I am kept awake not only by the people that I hurt, whether on purpose or accidentally, I am kept awake by everyone I hurt unknowingly, who might still be hurt.

This is the hardest thing: You can never know how many people you hurt, just by being you.

-MHBTR

The Colours of What We Have

When you have done the things you've done.

When I tell you I'll meet you at the door, and you tell me you're sorry. That I have no reason left to worry.

When you hit the ground in a most peculiar way, and I tell you to wait and you tell me I'll be sorry. That you have no reason left to worry. 

When I am more than you can take, just give me back.

If you're tired of trying to fall asleep, sleep on it and try again tomorrow.
If you're all out of promises, I have one left for you: The Earth is still here as long as you're alive.
If you want to yell out your frustrations, I'll understand, just understand that the whole world is screaming, mostly complaining about the noise.

If you're worried about having the poetry knocked out of you of you when you're older, don't. Old blood bleeds as good as new.
If you've got nothing left to feel, just think of me and please do not walk away.

If there's anything else, let me know.

-russ d' great

Baliwan 101

Sa pagiging distress lagi sa buhay, minsan na e'inspire tuloy ako na sana maging baliw na lang. Feeling ko kasi wala na silang feelings, tila wala na rin silang kapagoran kakalakad kahit saan, parang hindi na rin sila na gugutom---at kung gutom man unli naman pagkain nila sa daan...weeeheee... =)

Bilib rin ako sa confidence nila. Wala silang pakialam anuman sabihin ng mga tao sa kanila, wala silang pakialam sa pamatay amoy nila, sa damit nila, sa buhok, sa paa, sa langaw, sa dumi, sa matraffic na daan, sa lubak na kalsada, global warming, baha, mahal na bill ng kuryente, internet, cell phone load, bigas, leptospirosis, kung corrupt nga ba si binay, kung mananalo nga ba si duterte, kung bakit may FB at IG na, o sa 1D kung nagkawatak-watak man sila....Ang sa kanila lang----ay ewan ko ba...

Sa tingin ko ang lakas rin ng immune system nila-----kasi kahit palaboy-laboy sila sa daan---under the sun at biglaang ulan-----never ko pa silang napansing umuubo o nagkasipon man lang... O diba? para silang mga zombie...pero di lang nanganga-in ng tao---nambabato lang, nangdudura, nangangaway, nanghihingi, at kung anu-ano pa...Pero bilib rin ako sa mga normal na tao dahil okay lang din sa kanila---kumbaga normal lang sa kanila....O dibah? gusto ko na talaga maging baliw.....wala rin kasi silang pakialam sa mundo....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...!!!

Sabi nga ni Paulo Coelho sa librong sinulat nya "If one day I could get out of here, I would allow myself to be crazy. Everyone is indeed crazy, but the craziest are the ones who don't know they're crazy; they just keep repeating what others tell them to.” 

Di ko masyado matranslate pero isa lang ibig sabihin nyan na baliw man sila eh normal din sila sa sarili nilang mundo..mas ok na yun kaysa maging pabigat ka o pasaway ka sa gobyerno at wala kang naitulong sa ekonomiya. Charot! 

baliw na rin siguro ako sa ka-iisip nito...hehehe 

salamat sa pagdaan,

russ d'great

Veronika Decides To Die: A Short Rundown

As a fan of Paulo Coelho’s much-celebrated and classic book, The Alchemist, I stumbled upon Veronika Decides to Die through a  good friend's recommendation and was intrigued by the topic of the book and the major questions it asks about life and death. 

Inspired by events from his past, Coelho tells the story of Veronika, who seems to have everything in life that most people would envy and consider fulfilling, but who nonetheless feels dissatisfied and makes a decision to end her life by overdosing on sleeping pills.

Veronika, who attempts suicide, fails, is institutionalized, and is informed that her attempted suicide damaged her heart and she has only five days to live. In the hospital she has to come to grips with what it means to be dying, but also what it means to be insane.

“Decides” is the key word in the title of this book: Coelho weaves his storytelling around the major, life-altering decisions that the central characters—the protagonist and those with whom she interacts in the mental hospital—must ponder when they learn of her imminent death. 

With her days numbered, Veronika goes on a journey of self-discovery that makes her contemplate her original reasons for wanting to die as well as the meaning of life as a whole. 

Readers join Veronika in her self-discovery quest by inquiring what they themselves would do if they were to learn that the ends of their lives were happening in a matter of days, rather than in the several years ahead, which many people hope for.

In the end Veronika finds that she is truly free. She seems to have everything at the beginning of the story: a job, boyfriends, and popularity. However, they're those things that enslave her, and that’s what leads to the attempted suicide. 

In a way, Veronika is doubly freed. She is free because she is dying, and what can one do to a dying person. Second, she has been labeled crazy, and, having such a label, people expect her to act oddly. She has the freedom to do those things she has been too frightened to do all her life.

Thoughts About The Author 

Veronika Decides to Die made me fall in love even more with Coelho’s writing style, because he seamlessly introduces to the reader a vast expanse of topics revolving around spirituality and psychology. The writing resembles that of a teacher who gently instructs his students without acting like a pretentious know-it-all trying to force people to believe everything he teaches.

It offers food for thought rather than preachy absolute truths. As readers are engrossed in an engaging story that keeps them asking, “What will Veronika (and others) decide next?”, Coelho is a master at allowing his audience to absorb any new information without making them feel dumb for never having thought of or known about it before.

This book is not something to read once and then completely forget. It is meant to be one of those books in which the topics on psychology and spirituality make you want to do more research and reading in order to understand better the concepts being questioned.

Also, the events and characters in this book are bound to linger in readers’ thoughts well after the book is finished, simply because it will make them wonder about the exact meanings of their own lives, especially if the ends of their lives were happening a lot sooner than they expected. 

I’d recommend this book. It’s short, readable, and offers clear food for thought.

thanks for reading,

russ d'great

Prose in Motion: To A Friend Whom I Loved In Many Ways

"Finding love is like finding a friend, a person whom you can join in with your weirdness." Matt Haigg, Reasons To Be Alive

I love you with a kind of love that is terrified. Terrified at the thought of losing you. Losing you to the distance that separates. But worst of all, terrified at the thought of losing you as a friend.

I love you with a kind of love that is regretful. Regretful of the words that might escape my mouth. Words that escape in times of anger, words that escape in times of hurt, words that I would not have meant, and yet still did utter.

I love you with a kind of love that is afraid. Afraid for the moments where I will fall short to give you comfort in a way that you can feel. Afraid for the times when I will be incapable of listening and responding in a way that you feel understood.

I love you with a kind of love that is easily angered. Angered at the idea of anyone ever hurting you. Angered at the knowledge that I can do nothing about it. Angered at the fact that sometimes I am the cause of it.

I love you with a kind of love that is proud. Proud of all that you want to accomplish. Proud of how you overcome circumstances day after day, despite how difficult it may be. But mostly, I love you with a kind of love that is proud of simply who you are.

I love you with a kind of love that is anxious. Anxious to when will I ever see your smile and hear your laugh. More often than not, I just am anxious to know how you are, and to know that you are doing all right.

I love you with a kind of love that is full. The kind of love so full that nothing that you can ever say or do will make me care less. A fullness that overflows that even when things are tough, it overpowers the pain.

I love you with a kind of love that is content. Content because I have never felt more joy knowing that you're there ready to listen and piss me off when I'm in my worst mood. 

~thanks for reading
russ d'great

Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist: A Short Review

"When you want something, all the Universe conspires to help you achieve it."

Until today, I haven't read any of Paulo Coelho's books. I don't know why but I'm thankful that  three days ago my brother asked me to buy the book for him because a certain teacher wanted them to read the book. Then my curiosity about it increased when a good friend of mine said that it's a great book to add on my reading list.

I devoured the book for almost 3 hours and after which I know that I will be reading more of his works. The simplicity and wisdom of the book is amazing, adding to it are helpful life lessons that will surely give you positive reasons to wake up happy every morning.

It's a very simple story about a shepherd boy, Santiago who pursue his dreams and meet different people along the way - a gypsy woman, a King, an Englishman and an alchemist who helped him understand his journey in achieving his greatest dream. 

The book teaches the readers simple things about God, life and love - the language of the world. But as you walk along with Santiago's journey you will realize that simple things always comes with a broader truth. You may not see it the first time you look at it but eventually you'll end up realizing that it's been there lying and waiting all along. 

I admire Coelho for writing such a pure and unembellished novel in all its content; a masterpiece that will surely resonate to people with different faiths and beliefs. A simple story that testifies the power of following one's dreams and listening to one's heart.

I can absolutely say that The Alchemist is a must-read and I highly recommend it.

Lessons from The Alchemist (Spoiler Alert!!!)

…and when each day is the same as the next, it’s because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises. -page 27-

There must be a language that doesn’t depend on words… -page 43-

When someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision. -page 68-

“Everyone has his or her own way of learning things,” he said to himself. “His way is isn’t the same as mine, nor mine as his. But we’re both in search of our Personal Legends, and I respect him for that.” -page 84-

It is said that all people who are happy have God within them. -page 131-

“When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed.” -page 134-

There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure. -page 141-

…when we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too. -page 150-

And that’s where the power of love comes in.  Because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are. -page 151-

thanks for reading,

russ d'great

10 Important Things That Might Change Your Life After You Say Them

Don’t let this reality depress you; let it motivate you.  Let it push you to say what you've been meaning to say all along, to others and to yourself. Open your mind and heart and ponder on these 10 things you need to say before it's too late...

1. “I love you.” – Love rarely ever knows it’s own depth until it’s taken away.  So don’t wait around.  If you appreciate someone today, tell them.  If you love someone today, show them.  Hearts are often confused and broken by thoughtful words left unspoken, and loving deeds left undone.  There might not be a tomorrow.  Today is the day to express your love and admiration.

2. “I’m sorry.” – In this life, when you deny someone an apology, you remember doing so when you find yourself begging for forgiveness.  And if often happens just like that.  Why?  Because guilt festers.  Don’t do this to yourself.  An apology is the best way to have the last word.  The first to apologize is the strongest, and the first to move forward is the happiest.  Always and of course, don’t bother apologizing if you’re just going to continue doing the things you said sorry for.  Say it and mean it.  Look the person in the eyes when you say it, and feel it in your bones.

3. “I forgive you.” – A broken relationship that is mended through forgiveness can be even stronger than it once was.  But, of course, this isn't always the case.  So remember that forgiveness doesn't necessarily lead to healed relationships.  That’s not the point.  Some relationships aren't meant to be.  Forgive anyway, for your own sake, and then let what’s meant to be, BE.  Forgiveness allows you to focus on the future without combating the past.  Without forgiveness, wounds can never be healed, and progress can never be made.  What happened in the past is just one chapter.  Don’t close the book; just turn the page. 

4. “Thank you.” – Saying thank you for all your blessings is the first step to a happier life. Don't let the days pass without recognizing the efforts of everyone who helped you during hard times. Plus don't forget to thank God for the gift of life.

5. “I am a good person who is worthy of my own love and respect.” – Human beings can withstand a week without water, two weeks without food, many years of homelessness… but not loneliness.  It is the worst of all agonies.  And what’s the worst kind of loneliness?  The kind you can’t escape – when you are uncomfortable with yourself.  The truth is, a partner, or even just a friend, can add lots of beauty to your life, but they can’t fill a void that exists within you.  You alone are responsible for you own fulfillment.  If you feel hopelessly lonely whenever you’re alone, it means you’re in bad company.  It means you need to work on your relationship with yourself first.  

6. “I can’t always win, but I can always learn and grow.” – Don’t confuse poor decision-making with your destiny.  Own your mistakes.  It’s OK; we all make them.  Learn from life experiences so they can empower you!  What we call our destiny is really just our character, and that character can be enriched.  The knowledge that you are responsible for your actions and attitudes does not need to be discouraging either, because it means you are free to change your destiny.  Yes, the past has shaped your feelings and perspectives, but all this can be altered if you have the courage to reexamine how it formed you.  You can always alter your chemistry provided you have the courage to dissect your elements.

7. “It’s time to do something positive.” – The next time you have the urge to complain, stop and ask yourself what it is you truly want.  Do you just want to complain or do you want to improve your situation?  Somewhere within each complaint is a genuine desire to improve things, but the complaint by itself is never enough to make it happen.  So make the choice not to aggravate a bad situation with your complaints.  Choose instead to improve it with your positive thoughts, ideas and actions.

8. “I CAN do this!” – The obstacle is never enough to stop you.  What stops you is your belief that you can’t get past the obstacle.  The problem is not that you have too much of this or too little of that.  The problem is, you’re waiting for perfect conditions that don’t exist.  The achievements that really occur in life, take place in reality.  The things that really get done, get done in an imperfect world.  Don’t make excuses for why you can’t get it done.  Focus on all the reasons why you must make it happen.  There will always be challenges.  And there will always be things you can do to grow beyond them. 

9. “Their drama is NOT mine to deal with.” – Honestly, you can’t save most people from themselves, so don’t get sucked too deep into their drama.  Those who make perpetual chaos of their lives won’t appreciate you interfering with the commotion they’ve created, anyway.  They want your “poor baby” sympathy, but they don’t want to change.  They don’t want their lives fixed by YOU.  They don’t want their problems solved, their emotional addictions and distractions taken away, their stories resolved, or their messes cleaned up.  Because what would they have left?  They don’t know and they aren’t ready to know yet.  And it’s not your job to tell them.

10. “Life right now is pretty darn good.” – Some people wait all day for 5pm, all week for Friday, all year for the holidays, all their lives for happiness.  Don’t be one of them.  Don’t wait until your life is almost over to realize how good it has been.  The good life begins right now, when you stop waiting for a better one.

-russ d'great

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life sucks! bigtime!

life sucks bigtime kasi,

1.ung tatay ng kaibigan kong 5 years na nyang di nakita ay bumisita sa office kahapon kasama ang bagong jowa, sa sobrang inis at lungkot ng friend ko pinainom nya kami kagabi, libre lang ang malasing...hehehe

2. kasi di namin alam gagawin sa buhay namin

3. may ngtx sakin kanina ang tx ganito "russ kelan kaya tayo yayaman?" sagot ko: "ang hirap naman ng tanong mo" haha.. sucker...

4. dahil walang privacy sa office lumalabas kami after  kumain  ng lunch at tumatambay sa likod at nagpapausok at dun kami bumubwelta ng sari saring ka echosan sa buhay... :p

5. kasi feeling feelingan ang isang tao na dati mahalaga sa buhay pero ngayon ewan ko lang dahil di na ako natutuwa sa kanya.. feeling nya lahat ng koment ko sa fb may kahulagan.. hello? reality check lang.. please lang..

6. dahil kahit anong gawin ko di ako nalalasing, sayang ang alak.. tsk.tsk..

7. dahil may bagong meat balls na ang jollibee pero hanggang ngayon di ko pa din natitikman.. bigtime na bigtime talaga..

8. dahil naiinis ako sa kanya kahit wala siyang ginagawa sakin..

9. kanina mag-isa lang ako sa opis.. absent si dona, absent si rj, busy si thal, nahihilo pa habang nagpapausok kami kaya mejo hindi kami ng enjoy...

10. ng delete ako ng friend sa facebook at hindi ko na talaga siya e aadd dahil feeling siya.. kala nya ganun pa din ako dati..pwes for you general information... i'm changed... sayang ang mga oras na inaksaya ko  pero aus lang kasi kahit " LIFE SUCKS BIGTIME" eh MASAYA pa din naman ako kasi may mga kaibigan ako at pamilyang ngmamahal skin.. un lang...bow...

russ d'great ^_^

cloud9 feeling...

colorful ballpens make my daily life and activities more colorful than ever!

i received colorful ballpens as a gift this day and it's cute, amazing, awesome and helpful coz if you personally know me, ballpens play an important role in my life..lolololol.. but it's true so i am very happy i received a pink, green, violet, blue and red pens.. hahaha... 

have you wondered sometimes that you are discovering something that's very unusual? the way you exchanged smiles, the way he turned his eyes away when you're looking at him, the way you pick on each other, the irritating attention and the blunt cares,it's like you're in  cloud 9,  where the stars are above you, the moon seems to look at you, and at daytime the sun pour all her love on you, it's like you are in love secretly, it's like you are in love for the very first time, the very first time you met, the very first time you exchange thoughts, it's like the first time again, the refreshing feeling when his skin unintentionally touches yours, when you smell the shampoo he's using, the perfume he's wearing, it's very beautiful to fell in love for the very first time although honestly it's the second time already... it's remarkable when you feel that way! that's why i'm sharing this before i will sleep.. if it's a right thing at the wrong time? can you handle the feeling to stay that way or you'll ask that the feeling will go away? 

^.^ russ d'great

mga tip sa pagpapakamatay part 1!!!

si bob ong ay nakilala ko nung ako'y nag-aaral pa lamang sa kolehiyo, siya ang best selling author sa library namin, most of the time naka out lahat ng libro nya kasi hiniram na ng mga kabataang walang ibang gawin kundi ang magbasa ng mga pangaral at kalokohang madalas topic sa mga libro nya. di naman ako fanatic pero bilib ako sa kanya, simple lang 'yong mga life lessons na tinutumbok nya  pero tumatagos sa puso naman kahit papano, ang pinakabilib ako dun eh 'yong humor na dala ng bawat salitang nilalaman ng sinulat nya. siguro kung kilala ko siya sa totoong buhay eh magka-vibes siguro kami kasi gusto ko talaga 'yong mga mapagbirong tao, hahaha... nakakatuwa lang 'tong nabasa kong mga tip sa pagpapakamatay na isinulat syempre ni bob ong.. tip sya sa pagpapakamatay diba? pero hindi ibig sabihin gusto ko na ding magpakamatay, sa mga babasahin nyo, marerealize nyo na parang kabaligtaran ang gusto nyang iparating, na hindi dapat magpakamatay, na dapat pahalagahan natin ang buhay at ang mga mahal natin sa buhay. It's where humor comes in. 

TIP SA PAGPAPAKAMATAY- PART 1 MUNA!

1.

Bago ang lahat, alamin muna ang tamang dahilan sa pagsu-suicide. Kung ang problema mo ay dahil lang naman sa wala kang pera o iniwan ka ng minamahal mo, hindi ka dapat magpatiwakal. Ang mundo ay tambak ng mga tao na pwede mong mahalin at ang pera naman ay pwedeng kitain, kaya hindi ka dapat mawalan ng pag-asa.

2.

Kung desidido ka na sa gagawin mo at sa tingin mo ay meron kang tamang dahilan para gawin ito, ang susunod mong hakbang ay ang pagpili ng paraan ng pagpapakamatay. Ang mga popular dahilan ay ang pagbibigti, pag-inom ng lason, pagtalon sa riles ng tren, pagbaril sa ulo (o sa puso, kung wala ka ng ulo pero buhay ka pa rin), at paglalaslas ng pulso.

Ang mga jologs na paraan ay ang pagtalon sa mataas na gusali, pagpapasagasa sa EDSA, at pagpigil ng hininga

Tandaan na maari ka pang mabuhay pag nagkamali ka sa pagsasagawa ng mga nabanggit, kaya pumili lamang ng isa na hiyang sa iyo.

Bukod dyan, marami sa mga paraan na ito ang makalat at nakakapangit. Dyahe naman kung pagtitinginan ng mga tao yung mukha mo sa ataul tapos mukha kang dehydrated na langaw.

3.

Sumulat ng suicide note. Eto ang exciting. Dito pwede mong sisihin lahat ng tao, at wala silang magagawa. Sabihin mo na hindi mo gustong tapusin ang iyong buhay, kaso lang bad trip sila lahat.

Pero wag ding kalimutang humingi ngtawad sa bandang huli para mas cool pag ginawang pelikula ni Carlo J. Caparas ang buhay mo.

At tandaan, importante ang suicide note para malaman ng mga tao na nagpakamatay ka nga at hindi namurder. Sa ganitong paraan maiiwasan ng PNP ang pagkuha sa kalye ng kahit sinong tambay bilang suspect.

nakuha ko pa talagang mgsulat ngayon samantalang i'm super exhausted talaga, it's not a surprise anymore for us na marami kaming ginawa kanina sa office kasi payroll period nga naman ngayon, maraming ngbayad ng bills, ng deposit, withdrawal, lahat na, nakakapagod talaga,tapos sinalihan pa ng palpak kong officemate na gusto ko sanang sabihin mgpakamatay nalang siya, pero super mean ko na kung gagawin ko pa 'yon and it's not right to do so, kaya nga sinulat ko 'to para makakuha siya ng tip kung sakali man..haha. joke lang.. actually, private property ko 'tong blog kong 'to kumbaga dito ako nakakapagbuhos ng totoong nilalaman ng damdamin ko, at nakakapag-whine din ako dito so super secret to sa mga taong bina blog ko..hahaha.. kaya... goodluck sa kanila at least may outlet ako.. hay.. hanggang dito nalang muna mga pipz...

@_@ russ d'great

the ugly truth about valentines day!!!!

ganito kasi un..

valentines is suppose to be a happy day, with flower deliveries, lunch and dinner dates and all that but today was a disaster, i feel for my officemate who was just told by our branch head that she might not be regularized, what a damn news right for a day like this but who cares, it happened anyways and now my dear friend went home with a gloomy face, parang bumagsak ang malaking globo sa MOA sa kanya, kung meron lang akong pwedeng gawin, i dont wanna see people sad.

on the other hand, i'm happy, kinda, not so, di natuloy date ko ngayon, coz ayaw namin sumabay sa mga taong makikigulo ngayon sa mga restawran, may lavapalooza din ngayon but what the heck, sa wednesday nalang ako lalabas. i wanna share a message made by me to a person who mean so much to me but i guess it's time for the foolishness to stop coz it will never work at all, you can say i'm pathetic for writing this and sending this to him,, yes ok, i'm pathetic if that's what you wanna hear people.. but i can no longer bear this and i wanna liberate myself for God's sake.. 

this is how it goes...

"don't act like you care coz i know u don't , and why did i appreciate you for who you are? if you don't like me then don't bother to communicate with me. i'm sure many girls are after your appreciation so back off. u know me now like what you've said and i bet u don't wanna go far and know me better, i hate u like for real, for real, u never appreciated me. u never did. thanks to you my valentines day is very colorful. i could accept hurtful words from people who don't know me, but U? u said all those? the fact that at one point in our lives we have this mutual understanding, and the fact that the only thing you haven't showed and shared with me is your naked body, the fact that u still see me as a stranger with bad attitude and all that? what a waste. u have lots of friends, you'll be fine, the sad thing is i'm the real loser coz i trusted u and listened to u. i dont wanna talk to you, ever again. i swear to God. bye."

i know i'm really pathetic just by reading my message, isipin nyo  i sent that through a cellphone lang, of course shortcut ung iba and it's about 6 pesos coz it's too long.. see, diba pathetic talaga and apparently i wanna replace tom in that moving stick figure above, after those moments, i became silent the whole day and the grogginess i just can't hide.. but it's all done now and i can say it's over, i have a relationship to nourish and persons to know better.. sooo liberating... and i'm looking forward to something better this wednesday and for the days to come...

^_@ russ d'great

wtf is coral player?!!

ganito kasi un...

i'm a movie freak and i love to download movies through this vuze downloader powered by torrent, and it's so cool, i've download lots of movies through this downloader and this night since nandito lang ako sa bahay kasi bukas pa naman date ko sana lang matuloy, well ok lang kahit hindi marami pa namang time.. and by that time well ayoko na e share un..hahaha.. pag tinupak ako sige ok lang.., stick tau dito sa kinaiinisan ko.. so i download the movie "no strings attached" ni ashton kutcher and natalie portman so the time na natapos na, i'm sooo happy syempre kasi tapos na nga then i played it with different players installed in my computer, windows media player, vlc player, tapos quicktime player pero wala pa din it doesn't work, wtf.. at the end of the 30 second clip it goes like i need to download coral player?!! what the heck?! for the 1st time palpak ang download ko sa vuze, nakaka.asar, nakakainis kasi ilang oras ko hinintay un dahil sobrang bagal ng broadband internet connection tapos un lang, then i found out u need to pay to download coral player? grrr.. i'm so pissed....

arrrgghh... i'm super duper pissed....

  

russ d'great

love love love!!! kowts ng mga sikat para sa balemtimes... ^_^

Love...such a powerful emotion that has inspired countless artists to paint masterpieces, composers to write unforgettable music, authors to pen bestselling novels and playwrights to nail either happy or tragic love stories. Let's read what some composers, musicians, singers, authors, playwrights, and other music personalities have said about love.. 

But before you check out all those quotes below i'm encouraging you to read my definition of love, it's all written at 1st Corinthians chapter 13, love is patient and kind, it's not jealous nor proud, love rejoices in the truth, not in the wrong, love never ends..very beautiful verses but very hard to live by coz at one point in our lives we became impatient-waiting for our true love to come, we became resentful-for the hurts we undergo because of break-ups and misunderstandings, we became jealous, envious-with those people who are living a happy life, with those people who finally settled with someone they love and who loves them, we became proud of everything we have just to raise our damaged self-esteem because of the mistakes we made to satisfy our need for love, we became liars-to people who truly loves us, and at one point in our lives we hope for someone's misfortune thinking it would compensate the hurt they've done.. we should remember that love knows no boundaries, when we love, it should be unconditional, it should not be because it's like this and that and most importantly we should not mistake love for revenge and self-satisfaction..and most specially we should not mistake love for lust..

so here we gooo.....

 Ludwig van Beethoven
"I can live only wholly with you or not at all.”

William Shakespeare
“One half of me is yours, the other half yours-
Mine own, I would say; but if mine, then yours,
And so all yours!”

Benjamin Britten
"These two are not two, love has made them one. Amo Ergo Sum! And by its mystery each is no less but more."

Ray Charles
"Love is a special word, and I use it only when I mean it. You say the word too much and it becomes cheap.”

Joshua Harris
“TRUE LOVE isn't just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace, before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience even words left unsaid..”

Duke Ellington
"Love is supreme and unconditional; like is nice but limited.”

Ella Fitzgerald
"Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong."

George Gershwin
"For suddenly, I saw you there
And through foggy London town
The sun was shining everywhere..."

Billie Holiday
"Love is like a faucet, it turns off and on."

Kurt Cobain
"I’d rather be hated for who I am than loved for who  I am not."

Charles Ives
"If a composer has a nice wife and some nice children, how can he let the children starve on his dissonances?"

Alicia Keys
"If I didn't love it, I would not record it."

Carole King
"Do the things you believe in, in the name of love. And know that, you aren't alone. We all have doubts and fears.”

Beyonce Knowles
"There's definitely a dangerous feeling when you're in love--it's giving your heart to someone else and knowing that they have control over your feelings. I know for me, who always tries to be so tough, that's the dangerous thing.”

John Lennon
"We've got this gift of love, but love is like a precious plant. You can't just accept it and leave it in the cupboard or just think it's going to get on by itself. You've got to keep watering it. You've got to really look after it and nurture it."

Sarah McLachlan
"If you love large, you've got to hurt large. If you've got a lot of light, you've probably got an equal amount of darkness."

Gian Carlo Menotti
"I know of no better definition of love than the one given by Proust - Love is space and time measured by the heart.”

Mandy Moore
"Love is like nothing else on this earth, but only when it is shared with someone wonderful like you."

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
"Neither a lofty degree of intelligence nor imagination nor both together go to the making of genius. Love, love, love, that is the soul of genius."

Franz Schubert
"Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same.”

Alexander Scriabin
"In love's God-like breathing, there's the innermost aspect of the universe."

Beverly Sills
"I had found a kind of serenity, a new maturity... I didn't feel better or stronger than anyone else but it seemed no longer important whether everyone loved me or not--more important now was for me to love them. Feeling that way turns your whole life around; living becomes the act of giving."

Igor Stravinsky
"What force is more potent than love?"

Justin Timberlake
“Every relationship I've been in, I've overwhelmed the girl. They just can't handle all the love.”

in love ^.^

russ d’great

tsk tsk tsk...

isipin nyo friday ngayon, dami ngyaya, as in may lakad kami ngayon pero isipin nyo kung nasan ako, dito nag iinternet, ngsusulat obvious diba? siguro galit na skin si thal ngayon tsaka si aneng kasi di pa umaalis dito sa bahay, sa totoo lang, pagod talaga ako, ganito ako kapag dumating na sa bahay at nakahiga na at kaharap na ang netbook ko, nawawalan ako ng ganang umalis, gusto ko mag movie marathon ngayon, mg rerun ng criminal minds series, dalawang linggo na kasi kaming sunod sunod na gumimik, honestly dalawang linggo na din akong di nakapagsimba kasi pagod dahil puyat, sana lang maintindihan nila ako kung anong ibig sabihin sa hindi ko pagrereply sa mga text nila, di ko talaga alam paano tumanggi. 

sana di nalang pala ako umuwi ng bahay.. hahay buhay! ganito ung mga araw na gusto ko ung tipong maraming ngyayayang lumabas kaya inabot talaga ako ng katamaran ko ngayon, mas gusto humarap sa tv, kaya pagkatapos kong magsulat nito eh talagang mapapagod tv sakin.. bukas tsaka sa linggo may nakapending na schedule pero bahala na si batman kung di ako tinamad di hala sige go! kawawa naman si batman lagi nalang siya ang bahala.. haha. anyways.. galit na nga sila pero bahala na talaga gusto ko nalang muna mg.isa at magpahinga.. 

at oi bago ko makalimutan, nalampasan na pala ni Ray Allen si Reggie Miller bilang 3-point King! hehehe... wicked! ang galing diba.. goooo Boston Celtics.. gooo Ray Allen!!! bow.

here's the video of their game with LAL where he makes history by passing reggie miller as most prolific 3-point scorer in season 2010-2011.

nagmamahal,

russ d'great ^_*

just best friends and it's better that way....

I really like you. I do. You're so nice, and sweet, and you listen to all my problems and respond with the appropriate compliments. But, well, I don't really see a romantic relationship in our future. It would be terrible if we let romantic feelings destroy this great friendship we have where I get everything I want and you get nothing you want. Don't you think?

I knew you would understand. You always do.

We're so perfect as friends, you know? I can tell you anything, and you know you can always come to me anytime you need to hear me bitch about work or how ugly I feel. You wouldn't want to ruin a friendship like that just so you could be my boyfriend, and have me look at you with desire and longing in my eyes, if only once—would you? Of course not. Well, if we started dating, it would only complicate this wonderful setup I've got going here.

It's just…you're like my best friend, and I would hate for something you desperately want to change that. I mean, sure, we could go on some dates, maybe mess around a little and finally validate the long months or years you've spent languishing in this platonic nightmare, but then what? How could we ever go back to the way we were, where I take advantage of your clear attraction to me so I can have someone at my beck and call? That part of our friendship means so much to me.

No. We are just destined to be really, really good friends who only hang out when I don't have a boyfriend, but still need male attention to boost my fragile and all-consuming ego.

Anything can happen once you bring romance in. Think about how awful our past relationships was at the end. The guy I'd call you crying about at 3 a.m. because he wouldn't answer my texts? The guy I met at the birthday party you threw me? I had insanely passionate sex with him for four months and now we don't even talk anymore. God, I would die if something like that happened to us.

Plus, ick, can you even imagine getting naked in front of each other? I've known you, you're more like a brother that I've drunkenly made out with twice and never mentioned again. It'd be way too weird. And if we did, then whenever you'd come shopping with me, or go to one of my performances or charity events, or take me for ice cream when I've had a bad day at work, you'd be looking at me like, "I've seen her breasts." God, I can't think of anything more awkward that that.

Anyway, you would totally hate me as your girlfriend. I'd be all needy and dramatic and slowly growing to love you. If I was your girlfriend, I would never be able to tell you all about the other asshole guys I date and pretend I don't see how much it crushes you. Let's never lose that. That's what makes us us.

Don't worry. You're so funny and smart and amazing, any girl but me would be lucky to date you. You'll find someone, I know it. And when you do, I'll be right by your side to suddenly become all flirty and affectionate with you in front of her, until she grows jealous and won't believe it when you say we're just friends. But when she dumps you, that's just what we'll be.

^_^ for bestfriends in love...

russ d'great